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flaerdLoki found out his real heritage much younger than in Canon. As an always curious type and a seeker of secrets and knowledge, Loki cloaked himself from Heimdall's eyes one day in order to enter the vaults where such ancient artifacts laid. Successfully tricking the guards into believing there was an emergency elsewhere, he went to wander. While the young prince was in there he gathered information, consuming the energy he could feel from each one. However, none had a bigger draw than the Casket of Ancient Winters. He could not explain this yearning he could only feel it. Slowly but surely Loki found himself tracing the object and was overwhelmed by it's power. However, it wasn't just power he felt. There was something binding that could not be explained until his eyes caught a glimpse at his own flesh. He was blue. Terrified, Loki fled the vaults and spoke of it to no one.
This was constantly on his mind. It woke him up at night. He began piecing together the dots one by one. Why could he so easily create weapons from ice with his magic; why not fire, why not wind, why not earth or other elements? Why ice? Why could he tolerate the cold winters and had such an intolerance for heat? He longed to ask these things of the man he'd known as his father, the All Father, but he could not. He was too scared. Too scared what the answer would be: he was a monster. So Loki continued to hide it and tried to push it out of his thoughts.
Years later, the second prince reached the edge of his teen years and his magic was almost unparalleled to the other Asgardians. As his feelings of misplacement, inadequacy, and loneliness grew only stronger, as did his curiosity. He was sickened by it and he had tried everything to change these little similarities that connected him to winter and frost but he could not. Loki finally visited Jotunheim, horrified and frightened. He was met with hostility but yet also reason. Laufey adhered to the truce in place and Loki did not come with threat. Instead, he came to seek answers about that faithful night when Jotunheim fell.
To Loki's surprise, Laufey was far more cooperative and wiling to speak than he had thought would be. Nevertheless it was clear both were suspicious of each other and both being stubborn gave short answers with more questions to follow. Loki had inquired about why the Jotun went to Earth that one day and the history he was told, well. It was shockingly sound. Not exactly right, but not exactly monstrous in reasoning either. Wanting to believe that the Jotun were monsters, in a pinch and in Loki's own fear of what he were being told, he used his quipping tongue to insult the King which caused him to lash out. Here it was revealed that Loki was one of them and not only was he one of them, he was Laufey's son. The shock, anger, and mild anguish in the great warrior's eyes when he recognized those markings broke something inside of the still young prince. Did Laufey... care? He was demanded to leave, and so in silence he did.
To no surprise, Loki returned months later. He was still curious and there were so many questions that went unanswered. He did not know how to feel about Odin who clearly knew all along what he was. Why was he not told about his real heritage? After speaking more with the Frost King, Loki was informed that it was believed he were dead. They eventually came to the same conclusion: knowing that Laufey had lost everything and was unlikely to kill his own kin, Odin wanted to keep Loki as a peace offering when the time was right.
He was nothing more than a pawn. He was stolen from his own world and home, taught to believe they were gruesome, horrible, and primitive monsters; taught to fear and loathe them, and for what? To take over when Laufey dies and make Jotunheim more like Asgard? To eventually bridge the gap between both Kingdoms when Odin felt revealing this truth was right?
The same stories about Jotunheim and how Jotuns were savage and ugly monsters who cared for nothing but power was shared with Asgard who were not very different and just as thirsty for war. Speaking with Laufey and conducting a rational and even intelligent conversation about their cultures and what the King believed as truths about Odin and his own people slowly began to make him wonder how honest Odin had been about... anything. What better a way to squash an enemy and keep them oppressed than to only talk about their weaknesses and slights to your fellow comrades? Asgard had weaknesses plenty and Loki had always known that. Clearly there was much more to the Jotun than just battle thirst. Loki resented this information at first and refused to see it, but slowly he began to. Slowly he accepted it.
In a year's time, Loki's loyalty and belief in Asgard had fallen. He was the heir to Jotunheim; he was Laufey's only child. He was a prince, he was every bit as worthy as Thor if not more so and besides, Odin always said that both he and Thor were born to rule -- perhaps the All Father had no idea how right he truly was. Finally Loki had a purpose. He had a place. He could rebuild these desolate walls. He could be an equal match to Thor as a King of his own land. He had a new ambition. A better ambition. Here began his beautiful downward spiral in to seeking power and revenge.
The plot to ruin Thor's rise to the Throne was planned and known by both Loki and his real Father. Knowing that Thor could easily be talked in to going to Jotunheim after Asgard's security had been breached in the weapons vault, he put this plan in to motion. The sacrifice was necessary and the Jotun who entered the vaults were aware of the risks. Indeed Thor demanded they forward in to Jotunheim and Loki posed as a ally to the Asgardian warriors acting his role flawlessly. As Loki suspected, there would be great consequence to opening the realms to war once again. This fact alone only served to further spawn something terribly dark in him. Odin was of war and yet he feared it because he feared the Jotun who once were just as strong. Such thoughts began to form in Loki's mind.
After Thor was banished to Earth, Loki entered the vaults in attempt to take the casket and return it to Jotunheim. He was stopped by Odin and when Loki revealed that he knew his true heritage he was questioned. Why did Loki lead the Jotun in? Loki responded that it was because Thor was not worthy of the Throne with his reckless ways and it was proven so. To Loki's surprise, Odin claimed that he was right. He further asked how long Loki had known but in a slight panic, baffled by Odin's calm presence and mild praise, he responded that it did not matter how long, the point remained that he was not an Odinson, he was the blood of an enemy. The All father then replied that Loki was not correct; he might not be truly an Asgardian but he is of Asgard and he is loved as one. This set Laufeyson on a rage and much like in the movie Loki's rage put Odin in to his sleep.
For a moment, he really did panic. At one time Loki did love Odin and saw him as a father. What if Odin did love him regardless of his initial plans? This thought made him stall for just a moment but his bitterness and anguish battled the remorse he felt. He felt doubt, then. Torn between two worlds and unsure which one to believe. Asgard was his life and all he knew but how much of it was a lie? How often was he accepted here? When he could have Jotunheim, the Throne, a place to rebuild and reshape. These thoughts raced through his mind as the guard brought the All Father to his personal chambers.
Now that Thor was gone? He was King of Asgard and he had Gungnir. For a long moment or two, Loki entertained simply claiming Asgard in the name of Jotunheim.. Laufey could have Jotunheim and he could have Asgard. They could rule together. Peace, finally, except not how Odin wanted it to be.
He had planned to continue plotting with Laufey in secrecy before the Warriors Three beseeched him to remove Thor from exile. When Loki denied the request and they went to Earth to find him, he sent the Destroyer. The same as canon, Thor's power reawakened and he fought the destroyer and sacrificed himself. Instead of killing Laufey when he and a handful of his soldiers come to Asgard, Loki brought him and his soldiers in quickly before Heimdall escaped the ice coffin he was placed in for his treason by allowing the warriors to pass.
Thor reentered Asgard just in time kill Laufey himself before Laufey killed Odin. Loki tried to stop Thor with Gungnir but it was just a bit too late. Loki's already overemotional mind went in to overload and he fled to activate the Bifrost setting it to overload and take Asgard with it. Now he had been taken of everything. Everything. His family was a lie, his life was a lie, and his only real family was dead because of Thor because everything always begins and ends with Thor. He did not want Asgard anymore, he wanted to destroy it.
Thor followed Loki and they fought out on the bridge. Here is where Loki revealed that he was never Thor's brother but instead was an enemy except he did not explain why - perhaps because he couldn't find the strength to voice it in all of his emotional uproar. The only way to stop the Bifrost from destroying Asgard was destroying it and thus it was done. Once again, like in Canon it exploded and the sacrifice awoke Odin from his sleep in time to catch them both.
Completely torn up, Loki says "goodbye" and lets go.
Since then, Loki has returned to Jotunheim and still fights to remain upon the throne. While many of the Jotun do not accept him, he is small and he is not nearly as strong as Laufey was, Loki has become an adequate warrior in both magic, tactics, and spear. Loki has long since removed the armor and customs Asgard, he has broken the charm cast over him as well and embraced who he really is.
With a small circle of those who follow him willingly, he begins plans for war.
This was constantly on his mind. It woke him up at night. He began piecing together the dots one by one. Why could he so easily create weapons from ice with his magic; why not fire, why not wind, why not earth or other elements? Why ice? Why could he tolerate the cold winters and had such an intolerance for heat? He longed to ask these things of the man he'd known as his father, the All Father, but he could not. He was too scared. Too scared what the answer would be: he was a monster. So Loki continued to hide it and tried to push it out of his thoughts.
Years later, the second prince reached the edge of his teen years and his magic was almost unparalleled to the other Asgardians. As his feelings of misplacement, inadequacy, and loneliness grew only stronger, as did his curiosity. He was sickened by it and he had tried everything to change these little similarities that connected him to winter and frost but he could not. Loki finally visited Jotunheim, horrified and frightened. He was met with hostility but yet also reason. Laufey adhered to the truce in place and Loki did not come with threat. Instead, he came to seek answers about that faithful night when Jotunheim fell.
To Loki's surprise, Laufey was far more cooperative and wiling to speak than he had thought would be. Nevertheless it was clear both were suspicious of each other and both being stubborn gave short answers with more questions to follow. Loki had inquired about why the Jotun went to Earth that one day and the history he was told, well. It was shockingly sound. Not exactly right, but not exactly monstrous in reasoning either. Wanting to believe that the Jotun were monsters, in a pinch and in Loki's own fear of what he were being told, he used his quipping tongue to insult the King which caused him to lash out. Here it was revealed that Loki was one of them and not only was he one of them, he was Laufey's son. The shock, anger, and mild anguish in the great warrior's eyes when he recognized those markings broke something inside of the still young prince. Did Laufey... care? He was demanded to leave, and so in silence he did.
To no surprise, Loki returned months later. He was still curious and there were so many questions that went unanswered. He did not know how to feel about Odin who clearly knew all along what he was. Why was he not told about his real heritage? After speaking more with the Frost King, Loki was informed that it was believed he were dead. They eventually came to the same conclusion: knowing that Laufey had lost everything and was unlikely to kill his own kin, Odin wanted to keep Loki as a peace offering when the time was right.
He was nothing more than a pawn. He was stolen from his own world and home, taught to believe they were gruesome, horrible, and primitive monsters; taught to fear and loathe them, and for what? To take over when Laufey dies and make Jotunheim more like Asgard? To eventually bridge the gap between both Kingdoms when Odin felt revealing this truth was right?
The same stories about Jotunheim and how Jotuns were savage and ugly monsters who cared for nothing but power was shared with Asgard who were not very different and just as thirsty for war. Speaking with Laufey and conducting a rational and even intelligent conversation about their cultures and what the King believed as truths about Odin and his own people slowly began to make him wonder how honest Odin had been about... anything. What better a way to squash an enemy and keep them oppressed than to only talk about their weaknesses and slights to your fellow comrades? Asgard had weaknesses plenty and Loki had always known that. Clearly there was much more to the Jotun than just battle thirst. Loki resented this information at first and refused to see it, but slowly he began to. Slowly he accepted it.
In a year's time, Loki's loyalty and belief in Asgard had fallen. He was the heir to Jotunheim; he was Laufey's only child. He was a prince, he was every bit as worthy as Thor if not more so and besides, Odin always said that both he and Thor were born to rule -- perhaps the All Father had no idea how right he truly was. Finally Loki had a purpose. He had a place. He could rebuild these desolate walls. He could be an equal match to Thor as a King of his own land. He had a new ambition. A better ambition. Here began his beautiful downward spiral in to seeking power and revenge.
The plot to ruin Thor's rise to the Throne was planned and known by both Loki and his real Father. Knowing that Thor could easily be talked in to going to Jotunheim after Asgard's security had been breached in the weapons vault, he put this plan in to motion. The sacrifice was necessary and the Jotun who entered the vaults were aware of the risks. Indeed Thor demanded they forward in to Jotunheim and Loki posed as a ally to the Asgardian warriors acting his role flawlessly. As Loki suspected, there would be great consequence to opening the realms to war once again. This fact alone only served to further spawn something terribly dark in him. Odin was of war and yet he feared it because he feared the Jotun who once were just as strong. Such thoughts began to form in Loki's mind.
After Thor was banished to Earth, Loki entered the vaults in attempt to take the casket and return it to Jotunheim. He was stopped by Odin and when Loki revealed that he knew his true heritage he was questioned. Why did Loki lead the Jotun in? Loki responded that it was because Thor was not worthy of the Throne with his reckless ways and it was proven so. To Loki's surprise, Odin claimed that he was right. He further asked how long Loki had known but in a slight panic, baffled by Odin's calm presence and mild praise, he responded that it did not matter how long, the point remained that he was not an Odinson, he was the blood of an enemy. The All father then replied that Loki was not correct; he might not be truly an Asgardian but he is of Asgard and he is loved as one. This set Laufeyson on a rage and much like in the movie Loki's rage put Odin in to his sleep.
For a moment, he really did panic. At one time Loki did love Odin and saw him as a father. What if Odin did love him regardless of his initial plans? This thought made him stall for just a moment but his bitterness and anguish battled the remorse he felt. He felt doubt, then. Torn between two worlds and unsure which one to believe. Asgard was his life and all he knew but how much of it was a lie? How often was he accepted here? When he could have Jotunheim, the Throne, a place to rebuild and reshape. These thoughts raced through his mind as the guard brought the All Father to his personal chambers.
Now that Thor was gone? He was King of Asgard and he had Gungnir. For a long moment or two, Loki entertained simply claiming Asgard in the name of Jotunheim.. Laufey could have Jotunheim and he could have Asgard. They could rule together. Peace, finally, except not how Odin wanted it to be.
He had planned to continue plotting with Laufey in secrecy before the Warriors Three beseeched him to remove Thor from exile. When Loki denied the request and they went to Earth to find him, he sent the Destroyer. The same as canon, Thor's power reawakened and he fought the destroyer and sacrificed himself. Instead of killing Laufey when he and a handful of his soldiers come to Asgard, Loki brought him and his soldiers in quickly before Heimdall escaped the ice coffin he was placed in for his treason by allowing the warriors to pass.
Thor reentered Asgard just in time kill Laufey himself before Laufey killed Odin. Loki tried to stop Thor with Gungnir but it was just a bit too late. Loki's already overemotional mind went in to overload and he fled to activate the Bifrost setting it to overload and take Asgard with it. Now he had been taken of everything. Everything. His family was a lie, his life was a lie, and his only real family was dead because of Thor because everything always begins and ends with Thor. He did not want Asgard anymore, he wanted to destroy it.
Thor followed Loki and they fought out on the bridge. Here is where Loki revealed that he was never Thor's brother but instead was an enemy except he did not explain why - perhaps because he couldn't find the strength to voice it in all of his emotional uproar. The only way to stop the Bifrost from destroying Asgard was destroying it and thus it was done. Once again, like in Canon it exploded and the sacrifice awoke Odin from his sleep in time to catch them both.
Completely torn up, Loki says "goodbye" and lets go.
Since then, Loki has returned to Jotunheim and still fights to remain upon the throne. While many of the Jotun do not accept him, he is small and he is not nearly as strong as Laufey was, Loki has become an adequate warrior in both magic, tactics, and spear. Loki has long since removed the armor and customs Asgard, he has broken the charm cast over him as well and embraced who he really is.
With a small circle of those who follow him willingly, he begins plans for war.